In Repair
Wednesday, September 24th, 2008 | Journal and Noteworthy
Tags: ego
I have been down for the past few days, therefore the lack of update on Wooden Fish. Since last week, I started to reminisce about my grandfather, and by the end of Sunday’s sermon the feeling intensified. I kept searching in my memory recollections of him, and as hard as I tried I only found few, consequently the intense feeling of regret and my impotence on the matter grabbed me so tight that I found myself hard to breath. Things got worse, when my parents called me on Monday night. They told me what happened in the family, and the news just took me deeper into sadness and disappointment. I hope you can understand for me being vague here. Anyway, I am turning to writing poems again to heal and to vent. I hope I can feel happier soon and I hope I can restore what this world has destroyed in me.
September 24, 2008
4:06 pm on Wednesday
Hey {{{{hugs}}}} you should listen to the song by John Mayer called In Repair (unless you already know it and that is why you have titled this post) because it has a wonderful message about life and life after death.
I have not been fortunate enough to have been close to my grandparents, so I wasn’t as affected when my Mum’s mum and my Dad’s parents died but I did feel a little bit of pain at the loss and I don’t want to imagine what that feeling would feel like if I multiplied it by 1,000 which is what you are probably feeling. :( I hope you feel better soon.
September 24, 2008
6:16 pm on Wednesday
Thanks for your words and hugs, Reg! It is comforting to know that someone understands my feeling. BTW, I do know the song by John Myer and I think this is a good time to listen it again.
September 24, 2008
10:12 pm on Wednesday
My moms brother just had a heart attack this morning and I”ve been feeling quite the same as you have. Hope things get better. Luckily for me we have a very strong knit family here at home. Everyone is helping out.
take care man!
September 24, 2008
10:41 pm on Wednesday
Thanks for sharing Chris! I am glad you have a tight family to support each other, that’s a wonderful thing. However, I do sincerely give my prayers to your uncle, hope he comes out safely and hope everyone in your family is all right!
September 25, 2008
6:39 pm on Thursday
@Chris: I hope your brother comes out safely as well. {{{hugs}}} to you too.
@Ascetic: Any time my dear :) glad you like the song too.
September 25, 2008
9:31 pm on Thursday
Be strong, be happy!
September 26, 2008
2:42 am on Friday
Thanks Jerry! As hard as it is, life goes on, and I know eventually I will be okay, just hope I won’t be numb.