Sometimes I Wonder…
Tuesday, August 14th, 2007 | Literature and Noteworthy
Tags: ego, prose
Sometimes I wonder, if I have stood still for too long. In a wink of an eye, familiar faces became strangers, warm relationships went cold, and feelings that used to warm my heart transformed into heartaches. Perhaps, I have changed, but still standing still, unable and unwilling to move, not even an inch.
Sometimes I wonder, whether the reason I despise so many people and so many things in life is because underneath of all I despise myself. I despise for who I have become, and unable and unwilling to change, not even one characteristic.
Sometimes I wonder, if anyone truly understands me. Or perhaps, I have never opened any doors to allow anyone to enter my world. I have always feared or refused anyone from understanding me, because I fear the mockery and criticism. So, instead I complain and whine, unable and unwilling to give a try, not even once.
Sometimes I wonder…
August 15, 2007
2:36 am on Wednesday
Love posts like these. +1
August 15, 2007
12:56 pm on Wednesday
Thank you trench!
August 16, 2007
1:51 am on Thursday
i love that too :)
April 23, 2008
9:31 am on Wednesday
er interesting…sad though…so much i can say…but perhaps the posting is rhetorical?
April 24, 2008
1:03 pm on Thursday
Hi Mona, when I wrote this, I was a bit down, so I just wrote what was in my head and heart.
April 24, 2008
5:23 pm on Thursday
Well then I love it…I always love what is shared from our true heart (: If you are down too long and want help getting out, I’d be happy to kick your butt out of the hole…what are friends for…hehehe (;
April 24, 2008
5:38 pm on Thursday
Hahaha…thank Mona! I will definitely keep your offer in mind in case someday I need a kick on my butt. Writing for me is a channel of self-expression which sometimes can serve as a vent, and a good writing must be something true flowing out of your heart. However, I am feeling fine right now.